Can you rekindle a past relationship?
by roxanne on 07/29/09 at 6:41 am
My dad once told me that going back to a lost love is like eating your own vomit.
If that is true, I may not need to buy dinner…
That said, you can imagine why my last week was an interesting one that I am still trying to process. My first love came through town with his buddy on a road trip. Although we talk on the phone, it had been almost 2 years since we’d seen each other.
But here he was in the flesh. I wasn’t really sure how I was going to feel. The last time I saw Brent, I knew that he would always be my friend and that I would always love him, but it wasn’t necessarily going to be the two of us together forever.
We dated for the better part of six years and were best friends even before that. We broke up because…hmmm well if I had to pinpoint it, I would say that we broke up because we started to take each other for granted. And as I walked aways from a relationship like that, I was determined to find the exact opposite and never look back. 
Now five years later, I wonder why I walked away. I have dated others since, none too long or too serious. I have been on a lot of first dates. I have met guys good and bad, tall and short, rich and poor, smart and less smart, cute and less cute. I have even broken “my rules” and explored the idea of guys I always said were out of the question, i.e. athletes
And although I don’t know what is in the cards for me; who knows, as Gary puts it, I may be a spinster. Or as Susie hopes, I could be married by the end of the year–I am not vying for either of those scenarios, but what I do know is that I haven’t met a guy who holds a candle to Brent.
No, Brent isn’t perfect, but he is pretty amazing. And more importantly, we were pretty amazing together. We just clicked.
So now what?
I don’t like to misstep. I like to make the right decision, and honestly that has served me well in every aspect of my life but romantic relationships. Despite my constant requests, there doesn’t seem to be a textbook out there that I can read, master, and use to ace relationships 101.
Instead, I guess we will all have to wait and see. All I can say is that I am open to the possibility and the dialogue with Brent about where we go from here. And although I feel nervous…oh so nervous. I also am excited and Comfortable (a la John Mayer).
